Vespa

The other day I read one thought, saying that every day in life you should do something that makes you scared. I think that I’m still pretty unaware of myself and don’t enjoy some actions and daily events as I should, could and would like to. I believe that this happens to many. We have errands to do, tasks to finish, jobs not to be late to, promises made that need to be fulfilled; that we often forget that all these things are life, and we forget to enjoy all of them more. Not just rush to complete the task and get it over with, but to actually enjoy whatever we are doing. To be aware of ourselves and of the present moment.

I started enjoying everyday events more, definitely more than I did 5 years ago. Now I’m aware of the uniqueness and beauty of some moments. I appreciate more great people who I get to meet. I’m happy when I put myself 100 % into something that I’m doing. I love when I love what I’m doing at the moment. I love when I love my job and when it’s not just a nuisance that I have to do in order to get my paycheck.

I ran into this saying just the other day as I drove Vespa for the first time.

I met with a friend who’s got this great, old school Vespa, produced in 1980s. After a short introduction to things you should know before driving Vespa, she asked if I want to try driving it myself.

I was on cloud nine!

I said ‘yes’ without giving it a second thought. I never before drove a motor. I sat on Vespa, slowly released the clutch and added gas, and it was on its way.

I was thinking to myself ‘Why did I wait for such a long time?’:) It felt so good!

Something that I should have done long time ago. But anyhow, happy that I finally found the time, and a great friend most of all who had time and offered kindly her Vespa to me!

I love a routine and I’m becoming its bigger fan as I turn older, but I love to shake the daily routines upside down from time to time. I used to make big changes before – when I would grow tired of my life, I would change it completely, without giving it a second thought – move cities, change jobs. And these sudden changes can sometimes be stressful as well. I would need to organize my life all over again in a new city. I would have to search for job when I would return home again, that wasn’t an easy job in a country with a huge unemployment rate.

Now, I know better what kind of person I want to be, what kind of life I want to lead and what kind of people make me happy, and I’m pursuing this path. And before I get tired of the routines in my life, I shake them up a little bit, change their order, do something different, travel somewhere, meet friends with different backgrounds try an exotic dish…and I return to my routines with a happy face, and with a new outlook on my life.

When I was 18, I knew exactly what I wanted from life. Maybe because I knew so little about the life, and I only had my dreams to hold on to and to follow them, and no other worries on my shoulders.

After graduation I lost my focus about the things that I would like to achieve. Now that I’m approaching my 30th b-day, I realise that I don’t have so many focuses on my mind. I somehow got adapted to life – which, I must admit, is not really something that I approve of (even though it was me who brought this decision for myself ;)), and I probably lowered my life expectations. Of which I don’t approve at all!

So, I started thinking what is that I would like to achieve before 30th b-day. And two things came suddenly to my mind –

LEARN BASIC FRENCH (already made a first step in following through on this dream), and

PASS THE DRIVING TEST FOR MOTORCYCLES (Vespa to be exact)

I’m already making progress with learning a new lingo. With so many free online courses, that is not a problem at all.

And I have plenty of will and enthusiasm!

But, when it comes to the second plan on the list coming true, it will require more than just willingness and enthusiasm. I would have to be very disciplined and put money aside to pay for the driving lesson.

So, if I want to be a girl on the Vespa who can speak French, I expect I will have to work hard to achieve this. But it would be a lovely picture, wouldn’t it?